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Metal: A Headbanger's Journey. [Jun. 19th, 2008|10:39 pm]
[Mood |contentcontent]
[Streaming |Motorhead- Ace Of Spades]


You know I'm born to lose, and gambling's for fools,
But that's the way I like it baby,
I don't wanna live for ever,
And don't forget the joker!

Pushing up the ante, I know you wanna see me,
Read 'em and weep, the dead man's hand again,
I see it in your eyes, take one look and die,
The only thing you see, you know it's gonna be,
The Ace Of Spades.
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Wayyy Wayyy Overdue Post. [Jun. 16th, 2008|01:23 am]
[Mood |excitedexcited]
[Streaming |You Know My Name-Chris Cornell]

 Life has been pretty hectic since 14th May. Sorry for the long overdue post, it's really long and I'll like to think you all who are reading wouldn't want to take the trouble to click on a lj cut so the whole long entry will just be here. Hahaha. Let's start according to date, so that Saturday, I received another rejection letter from NTU (the first one came from SMU earlier on). My parents started to panick, got paranoid and we all started to consider other options, like SIM and Laselle. Well, the disappointment displayed very clearly in their voices and faces really upsetted me. So out of the few options, I was most interested in Laselle, I thought it was an opportunity to put my drawing skills to a test. The next day, I met up with Val and Sylvia and got art supplies and for the next week, I took leave and I was sketching, drawing, colouring at random Starbucks around SIngapore. It was really a mad rush, it was working hard for my portfolio non-stop. 

Digression: I remember meeting up with Kams, Danny & Kevin at City Hall on the 26th June, to catch up and all. I'm so damn proud of Kams, he got into Medicine in NUS! WOOHOOO! And Danny's in NUS too, engineering, well, most of my very few class girls are in NUS too. And i met up with Joshua on the 1st June as well, to catch Sex and The City and to catch up as well. I love these classmates of mine! 

This was actually taken on another outing, but heck.

So anyway, I was drawing & drawing & drawing till Thursday, 29th May, when I received a thick brown package from NUS, I was accepted. I was overjoyed or super psyched, in fact, I was confused. During that week, even though i was stressed out to meet the deadline, I was actually really enjoying myself drawing and all! So anyway, the next week, I was doing random stuffs, watching movies, drawing still and hanging out at starbucks. 

Another Digression: Thursday was also Ernest's birthday! Happy belated birthday! Hope you like the red locker and dinner at Timbre was awesome! Love you! 

So yea, last Monday, i went for Laselle interview with Sylvia, it was really an interesting experience, the whole group interview, how the discussions and small jokes made everything so casual and rather fun. Tuesday came the acceptance letter for Laselle. Really fast huh, they're extremely efficient i must say. Hahaha. And Wednesday, i was off to Bangkok with Val and my parents. Not going to go into details so just to summarise it up, we shopped and ate alot. Bunking in with Val was so much fun, random heart to heart chats, our mad behaviours, imitating the Thais there (no offence to Thai people, it's just plain harmless fun!), indecisiveness when it comes to buying stuffs, doing leg lifts and stretching after we bathe, lazing around the hotel room, trying out clothes, shopping and well, i just love her company. I miss you already Val! Hahaha. OH AND, I forgot to mention, I got into School Of Design And Environment, Real Estate. I know, what?! It's okay, I've already devised a plan, I'm gonna be a qualified part time real estate agent, earn hell lots of money and be a wedding planner too! It's just a dream, who knows what happens in the end. So anyway, as you can tell, I ended up choosing NUS, parents and all. Oh and, my mom got me an ipod classic after so long just to congratulate me, she's awesome. HAHA! Plus I've quit RP cause they didn't have a job for me back there that allows me to go back a few times a week. Sorry to all my colleagues, I do really miss you guys, really do. 

Yet Another Digression: I love the staffs at Starbucks! The staffs are really friendly and fun, especially the ones at Siglap, well, since I spent most of my afternoons there drawing. I bumped into old friends and made new ones, it's a great place to hang out anyway.

So currently, I'm going to give tuition starting from this Sunday, continue drawing, meet up with friends especially Bryan, Minmin, Lingling, Jared, Han, Wei Siew, Dalini, Lai, Ernest, Jiawei, Danny and all, watch more movies, look for more tuition kids or other random short temporary jobs, shop for school stuffs (notebook, the paper type, organiser and stationary), anticipate buying a Macbook for school soon, hang out with Hanwei and enjoy life while I wait for school to start. Hahaha.

I just want to show my rushed portfolio which I did put alot of effort in!

The Simpsons.

Eye Sketches.

European Eyes.

I Don't Need Plastic In My Body To Validate Me As A Woman.

In my sketchbook.

"If You Take A Life, Do You Know What You Give?" from 'You Know My Name'.

Mad Digression: I have to tell you all the story behind this portrait of Chris Cornell. Well, actually, i started out sketching a portrait of Johnny Depp, damn talented actor, director and producer. Anyway, it didn't really turn out looking like Johnny Depp so i just finished it, made it look like any mexican guy out there and suddenly, Hanwei told me it looked like Chris Cornell, so that's the reason why it turned out like this.

"An Eye For An Eye Makes The World Blind." -Gandhi

Pin-up Girl in my sketchbook.

Pin-up Girl With Coca Cola Machine A3 Size.

Fender Telecaster. (Which i'm giving to Bryan!)
"You fill my senses." from 'Annie's Song'

Gibson Les Paul, amps, drumset & a pick.
"What is it you love about music? To begin with -Everything." from 'Almost Famous' 

Wonder Woman in my sketchbook.

The Pop-Art Painting didn't go too well(my mom hates it, really hates it, she shows everyone how ugly it is and how unbelievable it is that Laselle let me in using such a painting, but thankfully she does like the other drawings), but it had a hilarious name created by Hanwei, The Name is Woman, Wonder Woman.

Kat Von D with very blurred tattoos.

Vintage Polaroid.

& the past few weeks have been awesome spending time with Hanwei aka Hobbit. I've baked blueberry muffins,  

labelled his things plus mine, (I have a thing for labelling stuffs nowadays!)

saw his really artistic (&deluded, note the muscles) self portrait,

& basically, we have been having a great time hanging out at starbucks, getting to know his friends, he's been so damn supportive of my drawings and when i get into my bitchy mood when I'm stressed with drawing, I tried to be as supportive with his schoolwork, and yea, things are just awesome, but last Sunday really tops the list. It was so touching and amazing. Thanks. I love you!

Nobody loves no one.
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Here We Stand, Or Here We Fall, History Won't Care At All. [May. 14th, 2008|03:30 pm]
[Mood |hopefulhopeful]
[Streaming |Who Wants To Live Forever - Queen]

Emotions overwhelming, my head hurts from thinking too much, it's all the university questions, 'Have you got any letter?', 'Where are you going to study?' that everyone is asking that is getting to me. Oh right, there is also that fact that i have yet to receive any letters at all. Background information, i went for a Social Sciences interview at SMU last month, NTU Sociology written test last friday and NUS Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences interview just two days ago. The written test reminded me of an application question for general paper in junior college and the two interviews were both pretty tough, they asked so many questions which caught me off guard, i don't know if i sit the right way, lady-like or unglamorous, whether my answers were too short or too long, or whether i was engaging or just plain boring, all these just keep bugging me, and will continue to do so till i get a letter. I don't know if my decision to put all Business or Social Sciences, or just anything not involving Engineering was a bad idea, but like what everyone says, Engineering is just not an 'Ansley thing'. I met up with three of the class girls yesterday, Ally, Ruth & Sharon, stupid Danny has decided to abandon me even though she called me the day before, saying she'll turn up if i'm going. Ah well, danny oh danny. Haha. Ally got an offer by NIE and some language course, the other two got engineering courses too. Hmmmm, NIE, teaching career, imagine me as a teacher. I think i'll just let all the kids climb over me. No future in that, besides, i don't want to teach, i still have that vision of myself being a wedding planner in the future. Sighs, all those conversations revolving around universities are annoying the shit out of me. 

Come on universities, send me acceptance letters! Then again, most importantly, Singapore Management University, send me a letter soon. 

The last week and last few days have been pretty good, places i went were, Temasek Polytechnic (Clover Manifest's jamming.), Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe (Once with my mama, grandma and brother and another time with Hanwei), Far East (I got new aviators again! At least they fit my face better.), Pennisula Shopping Centre, Raffles City, Cineleisure (Harold and Kumar was damn obscene, it's just shocking but at the same time, there were lines that really cause you to burst out laughing like a retard, just like that malay dude sitting at the corner in the cinema, his laughter was loud, clear and rang throughout the back of the cinema.), Sentosa (Finally met up with Ernest, Jiawei and Gar Meng. Awesome!), Cafe Cartel & Aranda Country Club (Mom and i have taken a liking to going for a steam bath and a swim.). I remembered doing overtime on tuesday with Sathya, Val and Wei Leong. It really is so much fun when we're all alone in the office, blasting music, doing mindless jobs like folding letters and slotting them into envelopes, singing out loud and talking nonsense. I actually felt relaxed then, if only work was like that more often. Ahh, i just hate this mundane counter job. At least there's friday's trip down to The Arena to support Axecalibur and hopefully get some drinks, to look forward to. And, I think i'll get to catch up with Joshua this Sunday too and of course, there's SAJC Band's Musical on Sunday! I have set my mind on baking yummy and hopefully not burnt brownies for them. I do hope i have time this weekend. Oh, and most thrilling of all, my parents, Val & i are going Bangkok on the 11th of june! Wooohoooooo! This is when i go mad shopping and eating, now both Val & i spend our breaks talking and planning our activities there, i even drafted my shopping list, and we planned what were the must-eats. The Bangkok trip is so psych-worthy!   

I have been getting so many good surprises i just had to pull one off last night. Hahaha, hope he like it and i love the Queen shirt, red picks and heart necklace. They are awesome stuffs! Oh and for the numerous goodies you bring every time you pop by my work place, the red notebook and Mig Ayesa's album (Even though it was a bit of a letdown, it was still sweet.) & most of all, the letter. 
They mean a hell lot to me, thank you Hanwei.
This is the matured (Wei Siew, i insist it's matured, not old!) photo of me at Cafe Cartel that he took. You really need to get a new phone cause the resolutions for your camera is awful plus there's the special folder in your phone that gives everyone the creeps. HAHAHAHAHAHA! But of course it's good entertainment.

And something pretty retarded but creative, done by Sathya and Andrew, we present, Iron Bear. HAHAHAHA!

Fuck, there's an Ansley Woo in Republic Poly and he's a guy. 
And it's unbelievable how childish and fucked up people can get, you really need a reality check.

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Damn, Now I'm Looking Forward To Another Awesome Weekend. [May. 5th, 2008|05:46 pm]
[Mood |worriedworried]
[Streaming |Dream Of Mirrors - Iron Maiden]

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
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I'm Picturing An Awesome Honeymoon. [Apr. 29th, 2008|08:38 am]
[Mood |excitedexcited]
[Streaming |Dance Of Death - Iron Maiden]

 Last night was a lazy night at home, my parents and i were basically eating nuts, watching tv and talking, nothing much important about our conversations, but they juts revolved around my new possible job and the so predictable chinese serial show we were watching. Then i laze in my room, read Anthony Bourdain The Nasty Bits & blasted music on my ipod. Below reads his experience in Bahia, Brazil, and it made me picture a couple on honeymoon, which then lead me to think where exactly i want to go for mine. 

"Since the music was loud and seductive, and the mood bordering on orgiastic, each visitor to the shower felt compelled to do a little wriggling and dancing under the water for the amusement of the throngs. Women in white skirts and traditional headdress fried up little cakes and poured cachaca in coconuts, couples nuzzled and hugged and kissed. Everyone was friendly, informal, a little drunk, and having a good time while their skin sizzled in the strong midday sun. The music played on. It seemed like paradise."

I love the way your photo pops up whenever you call.
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End Of April Shopping! [Apr. 28th, 2008|11:21 am]
[Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Streaming |Cowboys From Hell - Pantera]

Drop of a hat she's as willing as a playful as a pussy cat
Then momentarily out of action, temporarily out of gas
To absolutely drive you wild, wild
She's out to get you
She's a killer queen gunpowder gelatine
dynamite with a lazer beam, guaranteed to blow your mind (anytime)
Recommended at the price, insatiable an appetite (wanna try?) 

Arab Street & Very Pushy Indian Salemen. [Apr. 26th, 2008|11:32 pm]
[Mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[Streaming |Paranoid - Black Sabbath]

I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind
Make a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal

Somebody To Love. [Apr. 25th, 2008|08:42 am]
[Mood |satisfiedsatisfied]
[Streaming |Headlong-Queen]

Last night's 'We Will Rock You' was ultimately brilliant! WOOHOOOOOO. The cast and the band were totally awesome stuff. There were like two drummers, guitarists and keyboardist who was also the conductor. One cool event that happened, when Galileo (Mig Ayesa) & Scaramouche were running down the aisle after intermission, Mig stopped and bumped into Hanwei's seat and looked at both of us (I would like to believe that his blue eyes were staring deep into mine too okay. hahaha!) then Hanwei did the horns sign to him and Mig did it back then went, 'Sorry la.' before going back up the stage. SO COOOLLLLLL! We could totally see the wrinkles and make up on his face, but who complaining? Haha, we got those 140 bucks tickets for like 50 bucks, i do love being a student, transiting student though, so we were freaking near the stage, like 5 rows away. So anyway Mig is so damn ass talented and Annie Crummer (Killer Queen), her vocal ranges was totally impressive, but basically, the rest of the cast were awesome too. Quick go and catch it before the 27th April!

I'm feeling so much more joyful, but there are still certain issues not settled. Hmmmm, during the weekend i will & hope for the best so that I can go back to my wild, crazily happy & retarded self. It's the freaking weekend! And guess what, i have an exciting weekend lined up. Awesome!

When a red hot man meets a white hot lady
Hoop diddy diddy - hoop diddy do
Soon the fire starts raging gets you more than half crazy
Hoop diddy diddy - hoop diddy do
Now they start freaking everywhere you turn
You can't start walking because your feet got burned
It ain't no time to figure wrong from right
Cos' reason's out of the window better hold on tight

You're rushing headlong
Headlong out of control - yeah
And you think you're so strong
But there ain't no stopping
And there's nothing, you nothing, you nothing, you can do about it at all

Yeah, yeah
Alright - go
And you're rushing headlong down the highway
And you're rushing headlong out of control
And you think you're so strong, but there ain't no stopping
There's nothing nothing nothing you can do about it
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I Want To Break Free. [Apr. 24th, 2008|08:41 am]
[Mood |pessimisticpessimistic]
[Streaming |Bohemian Rhapsody-Queen]

Shotgun Start's acoustic set at B&Js (The Cathay) yesterday was not bad, i'm glad my colleagues actually came down to support too, awesome people, Sathya once again, was the freaking loud random screamer. Thanks for playing stars, Bryan definitely can sing. Heard more stuffs here & there, it does affect me in a way. Ooohhh, and there's 'We Will Rock You' musical tonight. Ansley, get psyched.

Sam's wordplay: I'm board. (I'm bored stiff like a board.) Interesting. 

 I had a fucking bad breakdown yesterday, it's just a whole load of things jumbled up. Things about work, myself, my future apartment, friends, him & another him. I might really have a nervous breakdown soon, i feel like i am driving myself crazy. I'm paranoid, down, disturbed & just screwed up. At random points in my days, i lose myself, i'm no longer the wild, high & crazily happy Ansley, but some quiet, uncool, boring & weak bitch. There's lots i rather do with my life right now, i feel a need to step out of my comfort zone.

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